Arguments with Parents

We’ve all had arguments with our parents, most of them end well and mostly everything goes back to normal.

My parents are different… they like threats, well, my Mum specifically. Don’t get me wrong, I love my Mum, but she prefers shouting and threats over logical reasoning. Oh the wonders of human emotion.

Hypocrisy – The practice of professing beliefs, feelings, or virtues that one does not hold or possess; falseness.
This is something my Mum does very often. If she doesn’t want to talk about something, she’ll just stop and ignore you, however, if you don’t want to talk about something, she will shout at you.

Do you think your parents overreact to things? You most likely do. A lot of parents overreact, but mine are different… They blow everything out of proportion. If you do something they don’t like, you’ll feel like you’ve just entered an erupting volcano.

I don’t know where I’m going with this, but long story short: my parents are very argumentative, and will threaten you with stuff ranging from eviction to talking to your friends (which is petty) if you don’t follow their rules, even as an adult.


Employers suck

I’ve been let go from a job for my mental health issues, even though they were aware of them for most part. I tried to follow what they asked me to do, but in the end, they didn’t like my behaviour and let me go, without actually even telling me what I did wrong.

I’m currently pending an ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) assessment, but the GP waiting times are INCREDIBLY long, they’re over a year long, which sucks. I’m gonna let employers know about this in the future, so they’re aware that I struggle with my mental health and social skills.

I worked for a startup, so I don’t blame them for not having any proper evaluation procedures for people with neurodiversity or other external issues. I know I could probably sue them for an unfair dismissal, but I don’t want to create issues for them, they’re good people creating an amazing product, and I just wish them all the best.

Anyway, shit happens, and this is just my experience. It’s a learning opportunity, right?



Morning, it’s 04:39 in London right now, and I’ve been anxious the whole day, so I can’t sleep. It’s this feeling of constant fear almost, like something bad will happen, it’s like my body is preparing for self-preservation. It’s very difficult to explain.

Why? I don’t know, but I have an idea. So, I went on a date with this girl, and she’s really nice, kind and attractive. She’s the first girl I’ve actually been on a date with, properly. We appear to have gotten on quite well, and it went well, I think.

My issue is that, she’s really nice and because I’ve been lonely for so long, having this connection, it fucks you up. It’s difficult to explain, because I really like her, but I also know she’s gone on dates with other people, and she’s been really open about it.

We exchanged phone numbers, and she seemed genuinely interesting in hanging out again. But because of the aforementioned, I think it might’ve been an act. I’m generally a very trusting person, I try not to get too close to people, because they will likely fuck me over, as people have in the past, but I can’t help it.

Honestly, I hope to see her again, whether as a friend or as something more.

So… I think this might be the reason for my anxiety, this thought that I might not see her again, someone I found actually interesting and genuine, and someone I could actually connect with after a long period of thinking I’m useless and will end up alone. I suppose I’m just saying that I don’t want to end up alone, because I find it difficult to connect with people.

I’ll leave you with an embed of “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Green Day. The music video is wholesome and sad at the same time, I’ve been listening to it a lot today, I don’t know why.